WEARING THE INSIDE OUT
“Wearing the Inside Out” is an investigation of my ambivalence towards motherhood and how it challenges my sense of self as a woman and an adult.
I started working on “Wearing the Inside Out” in 2020 when my close friend Azi became pregnant with her second child. I was coming out of a depression and slowly articulating the kind of life I wanted to lead. At the time, I was also living with my friend, her husband, their young daughter, the nanny, and their dog. This proximity confronted me with the different life choices we were making and made it difficult not to grapple with whether I’d like to start a family myself.
I began to document her pregnancy and the life we shared as a way to untangle and confront the ambivalence I sit in. It was an effort to face the inadequacy I feel as a woman heading into her mid-thirties unmarried and without a child. As much as I enjoy my freedom I am also afraid something important is passing me by.